Sunday, October 24, 2010

Day 15 ~ My dream house

I want a home with loads of windows on the back of the house. I want the house on a hill. I want there to be a woods beyond the hill so we can sit looking out the window at the changing seaons. But most of all I want a house filled with babies. My babies. Human babies.

Day 14 ~ Nonfictional book

This book really helped me through my darkest of days.

No I havent fell off the face of the Earth...

well at least for now.

My life has been total chaos since my last posting several weeks ago. Housing issues, job issues, and of course the pitts of TTC.

First: House

Our landlord was threatening to kick us out because we were considering buying a home that wasn't the one that we are renting. He was furious. We found a home that is much larger than the one we are renting for the same price that our landlord wants for this place. So we had loads to consider. We would rather go for the bigger house, you never know how many babies we will make, so a bigger house just seems reasonable.
Anyways.... He told us that there was someone interested in buying this place. He also gave us a month to get out. The hubs and I started packing things away. The man came over to look at the house with our landlord. To his surprise he saw that we had boxes and boxes everywhere. He knew we meant business. Since he saw our packing, he has been back tracking everything he has told us. He wants us to stay here because he know he will lose $400/month in rent. And he is under huge financial trouble with this house. We are still packing. We will continue to pack. Its going to be about 60 - 90 days before we can get the loan for the house that we want to purchase. BUT, we may find something better. Something with land.

Second: Job

Not so much with me, as for my husband. Insurance is crazy. It really is. His employer decided that they are going to once again change the insurance. Ugh. They do this every year. Last year, we had to switch to a high deductible plan just because it was going to cost us to much to do the other plan. Next year they are going to start charging for the HSA, and not put much money in our account. Oh the hold they have over our heads. I would just say forget all of this insurance crap, but going through infertility treatments without this would be a nightmare!!

Finally: The TTC pitts

Here is the round up. Rember the goal progesterone level is 20
Clomid round 1 ~ 50 mg raised progesterone to 6.7; BFN
Clomid round 2 ~ 100mg raised progesterone to 22; BFN
Clomid round 3 ~ 100mg currently running through my blood stream

Tuesday I go in for the CD 14 ultrasound. We will then discuss if I am a good candidate for the hcg trigger shot. I'm really hoping that I am so we can better our chances of conception.

Saturday, August 21, 2010

DAY 13 ~ A fictional book

This is really hard for me. I am such a book lover. Ok, so my favorite fictional is: My Sisters Keeper.

Thursday, August 19, 2010

DAY 12 ~ I'm OCD about...

The way the dishes are washed!! Here's the line up:
1. plastic cups
2. glass cups
3. silverware and cooking utensils
4. plates
5. containers
6. Things with ooey gooey's on them like pots and pans

I just hate thinking that people was them in another order than this! The things that touch my mouth first will be washed first!! I dont want my forks sitting in a sink of ooey gooey things only then to be placed in my mouth!!!

You know husband, if we just had a dishwasher life would be soo much better!!

DAY 11 ~ A recent photo

This photo is of my husband and I. I think it was taken about two weeks ago. We were actually sitting at the computer researching my hormone disorder. Ironic.

Running through my blood

Yesterday I started my first round of Clomid (50mg). This plus the current diet and progesterone supplement that I am devouring should help us stay pregnant. Or at least i hope and pray it does.

So far the only side effect is that I am extremely tired.

I go in on the 23rd to my OB for my annual check up. He wants to discuss what I need to do on what days during my cycle. I have a sono on the 30th to check if the clomid is working. Then on CD 21 more progesterone testing!!

2yrs and still going.

Monday, August 16, 2010

I will....

start taking clomid on Wednesday. That plus prometrium at the end of the cycle really should help.

I hope.

DAY 10 ~ A picture of me 10 years ago

This was in 2001. I was on my senior trip in Florida. I'm the one in the blue stripped tank. I think we were at Hard Rock Cafe. It was such a great time.

Sunday, August 15, 2010

DAY 9 ~ I took this picture

Ok So I need to keep going with this to keep my mind off of the TTC mess that currently houses my brain.
I know the picture is side ways, I really couldnt get it to flip. This is a picture of my SIL, her boy friend, my hubs and me at the 2010 March of Dimes event. This was such an amazing day.

Saturday, August 14, 2010

I'm so tired....

of trying.

I just wish there was a magic button that i could push and make everything better. Allow me to hold my three precious angel babies in my arms. Allow my uterus to decide to house a baby.

I'm just so tired of failure. I feel like I've failed my motherly duties. I've failed my husband to bring him a child. I failed to make us a family....

TTC sucks when all we have had is negative. Just for once, just once, I would love something positive to come out of this. But, will it ever......

DAY 7 & 8 ~ A happy and sad photo

This picture.....Well, it really is the best of both worlds. At first I was extremely happy when this was taken. Now it makes me yearn for this baby.

The day mommy and daddy got to see you for the first time Baby J was just so amazing. We heard your beautiful heartbeat and saw you moving around. I decided to make copies of this photo and put it in frames. One for me and daddy and one for each of your grandmothers. That was the best day of my life.

Then when we had that appt where we found out you stopped growing. I came home, saw your picture in the frame. I don't think I've ever cried soo much.

To this day whenever I look at that picture my soul becomes flooded with joy and sorrow. I know eventually I will have a child growing and staying with me.

Wednesday, August 11, 2010

To my dearest Daisy,

Your tail is attached.....

Tuesday, August 10, 2010

DAY 6 ~ 20 favorite things

"These are a few of my favorite things......."

  1. My husband

  2. My sweet doggies, Rosco and Daisy

  3. My angel babies

  4. My family

  5. My dearest friends

  6. My job as a teacher

  7. The smell of playdough

  8. Chicken (I could live off of this food)

  9. Butterflies

  10. Ice cream

  11. Books, books, books!!

  12. Music

  13. Swimming my day away

  14. The feel of the sun against my skin

  15. Snuggeling with my husband and my doggies

  16. Purple

  17. The smell of bleach

  18. Clean clothes and sheets

  19. My home

  20. My car

DAY 5 ~ My favorite quote

This quote ties into my favorite movie, Meet the Robinsons. This quote was the reoccuring theme throughout the duration of the movie. I guess it really helps me through my life. It really pushes me.

"We keep moving forward, opening new doors, and doing new things,

because we are curious, and curiosity keeps leading us down new paths"

~Walt Disney


Yes, I am 8 days past ovulation. How am I feeling???
Side pain...
not hungry....
Did I mention sleepy??

Last night I went to bed at like 8:00 I woke up this morning at 9!! Yes I got 13 hours of sleep! Hopefully I can stay awake today.

DAY 4 ~ My favorite book

This is a hard one for me. I'm a teacher, avid reader, and book nut....It's going to be hard to choose. There was a time when one book slips out of my favorites only to return a month later. Okay I think it's time to go look in my book shelf........................How can I possibly choose one book out of my zillion books!!! AHH!!!!!

Okay deep breaths....



My all time favorite book is.......The Wizard of Oz! There is just something about that book that captures all of my mind, all of my attention, all of my love.

Monday, August 9, 2010

DAY 3 ~ My favorite TV show

When I read the title of today's favorite I already knew in my mind my favorite TV show. Hands down, my favorite TV show is House. I really don't think I need to explain anything farther than that. It's just an amazing show! And the boss is kinda cute!

Thursday, August 5, 2010

DAY 2 ~ My favorite movie

Comedy, horror, romantic, romantic-comedy, Disney....WOW! It's too hard to choose! My husband and I just love to watch movies. I think my favorite genre is comedy of any sort. But I still do love me some Disney. My pick for favorite movie is....Drum roll please........Meet the Robinsons! There is just something about this movie that captures my heart, makes me want to reach and achieve all of my dreams. This moving is very inspiring. Honestly I could watch this movie each and every day.

Wednesday, August 4, 2010

DAY 1 ~ My favorite song

So without further adieu : DAY 1 ~ My favorite song

WOW! This is going to be much harder than I thought. I have so many great songs in my life. I am a very musically inclined person. Playing a musical instrument for over 8 years will do that to a person. Let's see.... My facorite song has to be "Just a Girl" by No Doubt. I have always been a HUGE GYNORMOUS No Doubt fan. I remember beign a little girl at my grandmothers house rockin' it out on her porch to this group. I totally think I rocked the air gutiar! Oh and her outfits! Gwen, you are just amazing!! Lo and behold my first ever concert :2009 No Doubt at the Verizon Wireless Music Center in Indy. Yep, I'm a No Doubt junkie!

Life is good today!

Okay so I saw this on someone elses blog and thought it would be a fun thing to do!! Mostly to keep my mind of the insanity of TTC. So here we go!!

  • DAY 1 ~ My favorite song
  • DAY 2 ~ My favorite movie
  • DAY 3 ~ My favorite television program
  • DAY 4 ~ My favorite book
  • DAY 5 ~ My favorite quote
  • DAY 6 ~ 20 of my favorite things
  • DAY 7 ~ A photo that makes you happy
  • DAY 8 ~ A photo that makes you angry/sad
  • DAY 9 ~ A photo you took
  • DAY 10 ~ A photo taken over 10 years ago of you
  • DAY 11 ~ A recent photo of you
  • DAY 12 ~ Something you are OCD about
  • DAY 13 ~ A fictional book
  • DAY 14 ~ A nonfictional book
  • DAY 15 ~ My dream house
  • DAY 16 ~ A song that makes you cry
  • DAY 17 ~ A piece of art
  • DAY 18 ~ My wedding
  • DAY 19 ~ My talent
  • DAY 20 ~ My hobby
  • DAY 21 ~ A recipe
  • DAY 22 ~ A website
  • DAY 23 ~ A youtube video
  • DAY 24 ~ Where I live
  • DAY 25 ~ My day
  • DAY 26 ~ My week
  • DAY 27 ~ My worst habit
  • DAY 28 ~ In my purse
  • DAY 29 ~ My hopes, dreams, and plans for the next 365 days
  • DAY 30 ~ My dream for the future

Saturday, July 31, 2010

Yes, well, maybe.... I really don't know

A few days ago I got a call from the OB's office. Dr C wants me to start taking my prometrium on CD 24 which will be on the 17th. He then said that we need to discuss going on clomid at my next appt which is on the 23rd.

No clomid......First he states that he doesn't want to put me on this because I get pregnant so easily. But since he found out my progesterone levels are so low he wants to put me on this med. This just really cornfuses me! I thought he didn't want to mess up my ovulation. I really have no idea. I guess that I am just going to have to voice my concerns and questions when I go in. HOWEVER, I'm really hoping that I get pregnant before then, especially since we are actively trying right now.

So prometrium and maybe clomid. Man who knew that my body would cause so many issues in trying to have a successful pregnancy.

Monday, July 26, 2010

She's here!!

Aunt Flo is finally in the building!! FINALLY!!! YAY!! This is the month we can start TTC again! Now all I have to do is wait for her beautiful face to leave! WOOT WOOT!

Thursday, July 22, 2010

The results are in......

Progesterone level: 6.7

Needs to be 20!!!

Wednesday, July 21, 2010


I just feel like I am stuck in a rut with this whole TTC process and job hunt. Ugh... Will it ever be my turn to birth a baby, to house a baby in my uterus for 9 glorious months, to get an actual teaching job and not be sitting around as an aide for the rest of my life?!?

Saturday, July 17, 2010

Hello Friends!

It's me Stacy. Just wanted to let you know that I am back on board of this TTC Train "chugga-chugga-chugga-chugga-choo-choo"

Friday, July 16, 2010

A light at the end of the.......rainbow?

Today is THE day! I am going to go and get my progesterone levels tested! WAHOO!!! I am soo excited for them to have to take my blood! Honestly, I never thought I would say that, but I am! Guess what else this means!?! We get to start trying for a baby again! Yes, I already know that I am at the end of this cycle, but really I'm so excited! Using rubbers, well that blew. Oh, and I start taking my Prometrium tonight! How amazing is that!!?!! We are this much closer to having a pregnancy again! I cannot wait!! I honestly feel that I am supposed to have a baby before I get a job. Things seem to be pointing in the direction of having children. I sure hope I'm right about this one!

In other exciting news, Josh's car FINALLY kicked the bucket! It was the car I owned since I was 16. You may be thinkin, "man this girl is crazy for being excited about a broken car!" It was honestly a rolling death sentence. This was the third time that the transmission blew and we were not going to fix it again! The car is only worth $200!! I'm tired of spending money on that darn thing! So I decided to call the bank. I got my new Envoy in May. They told us that we needed to wait 6months before trying for another loan. I was a little worried that we would be a one car family for another 3 months! We work in opposite directions at weird times, so being a one car family is not an option. So I explained all of this to them. She put me on hold for a few minutes. Then she gets back on and tells us to go find a car!

After hearing those few words the search was on! So we live in the middle of Indiana, about 30 minutes from Greenville, Ohio. We ended up 10 miles from the Indiana-Michigan border. Yet, we still didn't find a truck. "It has to be perfect!!" So here we are looking for this perfect truck, in my perfect Envoy. And nothing.....No glimmer of hope.....It seems like all the trucks that Josh wants mysteriously were sold off the market once we got the go ahead to get a new one. WTH!?! This is his long weekend to work. We are going to resume the truck hunt on Monday. He may even do some Internet shopping. I'm just so excited that we are getting somewhere in life!!

Wednesday, July 14, 2010


They hired someone from freakin' Utah for the 5th grade teaching position, even though it was an internal posting! Makes no sense to me! Gosh, will I ever get a teaching job................

I'm soooo excited!

And I just can't hide it!!

Friday, I go in for my progesterone testing. KMFC that the levels are not normal, which I don't think they will be with all of the research I've done. Which will be great if they are not normal, that would explain why we have had recurrent miscarriages. Anyways, after I get my progesterone tested I have to start taking Prometrium to help build up my lining. We can also start trying for a baby again. Which is wonderful btw!

Today I went to get my prometrium refilled so I have plenty when comes Friday. Now normally this RX costs me $400/month, so I've been getting it in two week spurts, because $400 was a bit much at the time. When I went today I asked to see how much it was. HOLY COW! She told me $50!! I was in shock! No joke I started dancing right there in Wal-Mart at the pharmacy!

You have no idea how excited I am about this decrease in cost! First off we met our $5000 deductible. So the insurance company is paying 80% of everything, normally we had to pay 80%. Our next deductible of $8000 will be the insurance pay it all. I think we will have that met by the end of this year, or at least I am hoping.

I'm soo excited to be just a pinch closer to TTC again. I'm ready!

Tuesday, July 13, 2010

Mellow Yellow

The past few days of my life, well, have been pretty uneventful. Nothing to exciting going on. Just thought I would let you know that I am still alive! YAY!

Thursday, July 8, 2010


Whelp, I FINALLY got the call. I didn't get the 4th grade job. They gave it to someone with 20yrs of experience. So the girl and I that work at the school are out, and back to aides. Puke! How the hector are we supposed to get experience when people won't hire us!?! It's beyond me!! I've decided that I am not going to let this bring me down. I am thankful that I have A job, it may not be THE job, but at least it is A job. So after I got off the phone with Mr B the phone rang again. It was the supers office. You know, one of those mass recordings sent to all school employees. Well, a 5th grade teacher resigned, which I knew she was going to I have sources, but it said to call Mr B to let him know if we are interested. I hung up the phone and called him right back. I was like I know I just got off the phone with you, but it said to call if we were interested in the 5th grade position, and I am soooo interested. He thought it was weird because the super said that he wasn't going to post the job until late July. Then he tells me that he would let me know when he does interviews. So apparently the first job wasn't for me. It wasn't one that I was supposed to have, but this one... Eek!! I am just going to have to bring more game to the next interview. I'm really going to have to rock the socks off of Mr B. Job hunting is soo stressful!! My positive is that I still have a chance to get a teaching position.

Hey MOM!

Rosco was super tired after our walk. He had no energy to stand and drink. Poor guy. :(

We know you just cleaned the couch, but we couldn't help ourselves. It smells WONDERFUL!!

Love you,
Rosco and Daisy

Wednesday, July 7, 2010


Thanks for telling me that I "don't know what it's like, because I don't have children!" Honestly, I almost forgot that all four of my babies are dead. Thanks for clearing this up for me.

Sunday, July 4, 2010


Yesterday I was out shopping with my momma. I really didn't have the intentions to go buy things, just to look around and socialize. As soon as I walked into the mall, it was over. $100 poorer, but I got some really great things!!

I just love how when our America has holidays, we the people have sales. BIG HUGEMONGUS SALES! 70% off then take 60 % off!! WHAT!! These people are practically asking me to take the items off of there hands.

First stop: Elder Beerman side walk sale. (yeah side walk sale inside a mall, whoonu!) Well, this side walk sale really really made me want to have a child more. It made me wish that Baby J was still growing inside me. It made me wish that My 3 other sweet angels were sitting in a stroller while mommy went shopping. This sale, full of baby clothes! Baby clothes by the dump truck load!! $20 outfits for $3!! Now who could pass that up!! Yes, it made my heart a little sad, but it also filled me with hope. Hope that one day I will be able to attend these sales with a sweet child. And get this, actually buy something for my living, breathing, crying child. What did I do? Well I picked out the most gender neutral outfit I saw for a 6 mo baby. Yes, I did! I put it in my baby box. (A box of baby things that I started when I was preggers the first time. It's kinda like a baby hope chest.) It is just the cutest thing! There are two onsies, one long and one short sleeve, a pair of green pants with a duck head on the butt. One of the onsies says "look I made you smile!" The other onsie has a picture of a duck. So into my baby box it goes. Along with all of the other things. Hoping and waiting for the day that I actually will have a baby to dress in these clothes.

Ohh, I also got some great shorts, $50 shorts I might add, for ONLY $19!! What! Nope, I'm not fibbing to you. That's the truth. So I bought three pair! Adorable, I might add! I also got a table cloth and a shirt for the hubcap.

At Kohl's I bought a beautiful $30 necklace for $9. I'm really starting to see that I'm a bargain hunter. Either that or America has opened up the gates of savings to me. She is like here Stacy, go out and shop for really cheap!

Then I went to Target. Oh target. The store I totally <3 with all my heart. It is a teachers dream! Especially that dollar section right by the entrance. OMG! So I totally spent $14 on dollar items. Items for my future classroom. Now, if only I would get the call saying that I got the job.......

Friday, July 2, 2010


Exercise has to follow motivation for me. Motivation has to be something real. My motivation is my four angel babies. Out of all four of them, only one was able to have his/her picture taken. There, above my TV in a beautiful frame, is an ultrasound picture of our beautiful sweet precious Baby J. How much more motivation do I need, than that? Looking at my precious sweet baby while working out keeps me going.

Yesterday, while getting my workout on, I just started at that picture amazed at the creation that my husband and I made. Thinking about where I would be at this point in my pregnancy. Would this baby be a boy or a girl? What would he/she look like? A million questions entered into my mind.

The longer I look at my baby, the more and more I begin to notice something. Right under the sac holding my sweet child, is the shape of a heart and the figure of arms out stretched. Right there in my uterus was someone loving and holding my Baby J up. Protecting him/her from harm. It was my other 3 angels. Tears started to stream down my face. I screamed for my husband to come and have a look. He just held me tight.

I find comfort in knowing that my sweet children, my husband, and myself all have guardian angels.

Thursday, July 1, 2010

1 hour 200 reps

Since January I have really been trying to focus on getting my health in order to better help with conception and the keeping of a pregnancy. I've been focusing on my diet and exercise routine that was set by my OB. For the first 3 months of this plan I lost 25 pounds! I went down 2 (yes 2) pant sizes and one shirt size!! When I became preggers with Baby J, I gained 10 pounds immediately. I've heard that you gain more and more weight with each pregnancy, and at a faster rate too. I was pretty shocked.

Well, here I am trying to lose that 10 pounds from Baby J and the 20 extra that I want to lose. so far I've lost about well, 8. I've really been trying my hardest at the exercise. Each day I spend an hour on my Wii Fit doing various activities. Love the Super Hula Hoop, by the way. Then I finish up by doing 200 reps of ab work. I can really see my abs starting to form muscles, and feel it too. I try to either go for a walk or swim on top of what I am doing.

Now the diet.....It has been harder this time to really focus on the diet. It's summer and I just love all the summer foods! Ice cream, strawberries, peaches, hot dogs.....I just have to keep reminding myself that I need to stay focused towards my babies. I'm doing this for them. I'm doing this for myself. I'm doing this for my husband. I know that this is going to pay off in the end. It just has to.

Tuesday, June 29, 2010


I just wanna punch you in the face!! How dare you go around and tell people that you are so much better than me. That you are going to be more successful than I will ever be. First off, you don't know me. Don't know what I am capable of, don't know where I'm going in my life, or where I've come. I know why. You feel threatened by me. All of the triumphs that I have made, you are envious at how strong of a person I have become. Before you open your mouth again, please remember that you do it because you love me.

Today is the day

Since graduating college in December 2008, I have been looking for a full-time, contracted teaching position. However, the job market in the field of education is not doing so well due to the economic struggle we are all feeling. Since I was a young girl I have always dreamed of becoming a teacher and a mommy. Well, I have my teaching license, I'm just waiting for the teaching and mommy part.

Today I have an interview for a 4th grade teaching position!! WOOT WOOT! Yes, it is full-time and contracted! I am so very thankful for this opportunity to interview for this position! You have no idea how hard it is to even get an interview with over 300 applicants for one position. This job market is tough. It's like a fight scene from the movie Fight Club. Imagine teacher applicants in the waiting room, dressed in their best beating the crap out of each other to get the job. Now, that's not really what happens. We fight with words. Fight with our portfolios, lesson plans, and great smile! We know how to work it!

Today I am going to work it! I am going to show my mad interview skills so he will have no choice but to hire me! lol After my interview i will be waiting for a phone call to see if I got the job. Why does it seem like we are always waiting for the greatest things in our lives?

Sunday, June 27, 2010

Making a splash

As part of my high protein, low carb diet for my ovarian dysfunction I have been having to workout like a crazy person. when I first started this plan I lost about 25 pounds in a three month time frame. Since I started last week I've already lost 3 pounds. I think that it being summer is really helping me stay motivated. I've been in the pool everyday walking and swimming laps. I also do some yoga and aerobics at home. I'm just trying to push myself harder each day so that the outcome that I want will be achieved.

Saturday, June 26, 2010

33 days

Today has been 33 days since my D&C. To my suprise, and eariler than I expcted, AF arrived!!! We are closer to being able to start TTC a healthy sticky baby! WOOT WOOT!!!

Thursday, June 24, 2010

I have......

a job interview on Tuesday!!! WOOT WOOT!


Monday was our post D&C check-up. Josha nd I were both super nervous and didn't get much sleep. We went into town about an hour prior to the appoitment time. We had to get a few things that we needed for our house. So we had the appoitment (details will come in a bit) and then we went to lunch.

Well, after we ate lunch his dad calls us in a panic. He said he was having loads of paoin on his right side. He said he wasn't able to drive and could barely talk. So here we are between our hous and his dad's. We flew to Indy from my OB ton. It took us about 45 minutes to get to his house. We get there and is truck is no in the parking lot. Josh was in a panic, s he was the entire drive to his dad's. We tried calling his dad, but he was soo incoherent we were starting to get really worried. Thinking that maybe he is out driving somewhere and getting worse. Then we couldn't find the hospital, stinkin VZ Navigator led us the wrong way!!! Finally, his dad called us and was speaking normally. He gave us the right directions to the hospital, no thanks to verizon wireless. We get there and he seems to be doing fine. He didnt have a heart attack, thank goodness, but really bad kidney stones. Our day started at 7am and we didn't get home until almost 10pm. I am just thankful that it was nothing major with my FIL.

Ok, now to my OB appoitment. My BP was up, but I was just feaking out a little when they took me into the exam room. He goes through asking how I'm doing and such. Dr. C then tells me that the reason I bleed for so long after the procedure was because the placent was so embedded in my uterus. He had to practically dig it out! Then he states that he doesn't have all of the chromosomal testing results from Baby J. The part that he does have is all, get this, normal!! WTH!?! He said that they are looking over some of the chromosomes again b/c they seemed to be missing something. I should get the final results from this in about 3 more weeks. I'm not liking this waiting game, but it's what I gatta do.

I asked Dr. C about a vitamin deficiency. He said that my blood work was too good for me to have something like that. Then we start talking abotu my ovulation. He said that my counts when I was preggers just didn't make any sense. They were too high for how far along I was. He said it pretty much stated that I would have O'ed on CD9-11. Then I dropped the bomb on him that I did O on CD 11. I always do, with the 25 day cycle length. I never really knew this info about my body until I started temping. (*Tip* If you are TTC I would advise temping so you know more things about your body going into OB appoitments.) I guess I should have mentioned this summer, but I never thought that when I O'ed would really matter. I also told him about how my OPK's were always light, but my temps went up. Apparently I have early ovulation, duah! This causes my body to not prepare itself to keep a pregnancy. It doesn't allow the lining of my uterus to be strong enough to hold a pregnancy, thush my hormone issue.

Dr. C wants me to call him on the first day of my first cycle after mc. Then he is going to get me set up with more labs to see my progestrone levels, again. Then when we start TTC again, I have to take Prometrium, my $400/month progestrone medication, EVERYDAY to help build up the lining in my uterus to help prepare it for pregnancy. So I am taking it before and during pregnancy. He really doesn't want to give me clomid since I get pregnant so easily. The progestrone supplement is the best soultion. Eventually, he wants to do an SA on Josh.

I have to make a huge dent and effort in this diet. I have to do better than what I did the past time. Although, I am really starting to lack motivation. I want to help my body as best I can so I can sustain a pregnancy. Right now, I'm just in the waiting game...

Tuesday, June 15, 2010

It's been a while

WOW! I cannot believe that I haven't posted in such a long time! Sorry my dear followers. You may be wondering where I've been.

Well.... We did in fact end up pregnant for the third time. We found out in the end of April. However, at the end of May the baby had stopped growing. I had yet another D&C. This time Dr. C sent Baby J off to get some chromosomal testing. I had the first round of blood work. My blood work came back normal. Now I am just waiting to hear about the test from Baby J. My next appointment is on the 21st. I hope to hear something then. The hubs and I will go through more tests to see why we keep having miscarriages. I hope they find some answers. I want to get to the bottom of this situation.

Meanwhile, I've been really trying to focus my energy on being positive and productive. I've been working out on a daily basis trying to get my body back into shape. I've been creating a heart wall that holds my positive affirmations. I'm hopeful that all of my dreams will come true. I'm just going to have to work hard and stay strong.

Friday, January 1, 2010

31 days and counting!!

To welcome in this New Year I am praying that AF arrives and soon! It has been 31 days since my D&C and nothing. No AF, no signs, zip, nada, zilch! Get your butt in gear AF and show already!!!!!!!!!!!!!