Saturday, August 14, 2010

I'm so tired....

of trying.

I just wish there was a magic button that i could push and make everything better. Allow me to hold my three precious angel babies in my arms. Allow my uterus to decide to house a baby.

I'm just so tired of failure. I feel like I've failed my motherly duties. I've failed my husband to bring him a child. I failed to make us a family....

TTC sucks when all we have had is negative. Just for once, just once, I would love something positive to come out of this. But, will it ever......


  1. my thoughts exactly! :( Lots of hugs your way!

  2. I totally know what you mean we've been struggling with this since we married (just remembered we got married the same day!!!) Losing Lukas has sent me into such a deep depression I wonder if things will ever change. I feel like I've failed everyone, my son, my husband, myself and my family. We should have a four month old baby boy now :'(