The Place: Living room couch with laptop in toe
That day I spent my afternoon looking up New Year's traditions or superstitions for fertility. There are many many things out there, trust me. I decided to try a few.
As I was conducting my research I found that grapes symbolize fertility. Good fertility to be exact. The one that produces great eggs and many babies. Yep that's what I want. Good eggs and many many babies. Here's the catch, you had to eat twelve grapes at the stroke of midnight in the new year. Each grape represents one month of the new year. The first grape is Jan, second Feb, and so on.... The taste of the grape tells you your fertility outlook for the year. I will get to my grapes in a minute.
Another silly tradition is to wear red panties. Red symbolizes romance. And we know that you need romance to make babies. You are supposed to ware red panties on new years eve. At the stroke of midnight you are to turn them inside out. On Jan 2, you MUST throw them away as it would bring bad luck in the romance department. I actually had to go out and buy some red panties.
New Year's Eve 2010
As I sit in my pj's, red undies underneath, watching Carson in New York waiting for the ball to drop, grapes in hand, I think about how silly and desperate I look. Isn't it funny what we would do to help benefit our fertility. Especially those of us who have experienced pregnancy/infant loss. We would do anything to help our bodies better for pregnancy. In hopes that we someday have a successful pregnancy.
10, 9, 8, 7, 6, 5, 4, 3, 2, 1 HAPPY NEW YEAR 2011!!!
Take off those red panties and turn them around. Check
Eat 12 grapes. Check
How fascinating is this! ALL of my grapes were SWEET! This means that I will have sweet things that happen with my fertility. How fun is that!!!
Sweet grape of January
Yep, my first sweet grape. Battling infertility is one of the hardest, most emotionally trying things I have ever had to experience. If someone was to walk out and say that I was going to have some good luck with infertility, I would probably laugh. But these sweet grapes have given me a bit of hope.
So, how has my fertility this month been? Pretty sweet I would say.
First off... I got some great news! My cd21 progesterone was the highest it had ever been at the lovely level of 39. I was so stoked about this number that I couldn't really think of anything, but going to poas just 8 days later. When that time came, the test was negative. I felt crushed. Then I started to look on the bright side. I knew that things were moving in the right direction. This was the first time we had a good level! My body is starting to respond to this treatment. What a plus!!!
I started my next round of clomid at 100mg. This cycle, I wasn't really expecting much. That's just how it seems to go with my body. One month is fantastic, the next is horrid. I was a little crushed by this as well. Then I started to feel things. Things on both sides of my uterus. Things on both sides of my reproductive system. Could it be? Are both sides going to ovulate this month?
I went in for my cd 14 ultrasound to check and see how those follies of mine were doing. Lo and behold this was the BEST ultrasound I have ever had! I had so many good sized ruptured follies on both sides! Everything looked great. Going into this appointment I was sure that it was going to be bad news, but after seeing that screen and hearing those words "best ultrasound ever" made my life change.
I know I'm going to be a mommy soon. With each new cycle of clomid good things happen.
For Feb, I'm hoping for a good cd21 progesterone level (2nd of the month) and a bfp. If a bfp does not come I will know that next cycle will be even better.
Positive outcomes only.
"For nothing is impossible with God." Matthew 1:37