Monday, July 1, 2013


I am finally feeling pain/uncomfortable free from my surgery. Having the balloon cath taken out lifted so much off of me! It feel like the gates opened and the angels began to sing!

Now I still am unable to workout for a few more weeks, but my body needs to heal.

Good news! We can start trying again in August! I cannot believe that I will be holding my child by this time next year!!!!! I never thought I would hear those words.

Saturday, June 22, 2013

4 days post op

It has been four days since my laparoscopy and hysteroscopy. The pain from the gas was gone yesterday. Now I am left with cramping from the catheter. It is starting to slowly come out. I can feel it. I am hoping it comes out on its own. I know once it does I will be more comfortable. And I might be able to sleep!

Wednesday, June 19, 2013


Yesterday I had a laparoscopy and a hysteroscopy. Basically they had several different scopes going into my body to look at my reproductive system. They filled me full of gas to help them get a better visual of my organs.

The Result:

I have a slight case of endo. So slight that he doesn't have any concern about it and removed it. I also have a VERY enlarged septum. He put a cath in it to help drain it. He knows for a fact that this is one of the reasons my body has not allowed my pregnancies to mature. I will have the cath in until next Wednesday when I go into the office for my follow up.

I was very sore yesterday. It could be the gas build up, or just the results from the surgery. I am very thankful that he discovered this problem. I've always been told that my uterus "looks" funny. Now we know why. So this girl who has APS and an enlarged septum is told that she will have a baby in her arms by this time next year!

I sure hope he is right about that! Five years and five miscarriages under my belt should yield me some reward. I think having a living baby in my arms will do the trick! :)

Monday, June 17, 2013


Man....I am beat!!! I found this great group on Facebook that pushes you towards your fitness goals. Right now we are into a 30 day challenge. Each day the admin sends us a workout to complete. The workout consists of body weight training. Such as push ups, crunches, squats, Russian twists, and lunges. Each day she adds more reps or changes up the routine. Let me tell you, this girl is AMAZING!!! I love the workouts. I love the feeling that I have after I complete each day. To top it off I add my own elliptical training or walking into the mix. I'm going to add zumba back in starting in August. AND I have another 5k to do in July (The Color Run). I did this run last year with a group of friends and it was AMAZING! Now I am not allowed to run as I have terrible, like how are you able to walk terrible, knees. So I walk the 5k. And I am okay with that. I know my limits. I know where I want to go. I see the end goal in site! I am excited to be a part of this adventure as I am hoping that it helps with my baby making. We all know how many pounds those wonderful fertility drugs add to your body. Not to mention the numerous times I've been pregnant and gained some baby weight. It has to come off! I don't want this weight any more!

 Speaking of baby making. I am supposed to have my laparoscopy tomorrow. But my body has different plans. I think we are going to have to reschedule....I feel like I keep having to reschedule this test/surgery. I am ready to be able to have a child! One that looks like me, or my husband (I really hope he/she has his dimples).

Monday, June 10, 2013


Why do people who know that you were expecting and lost the pregnancy announce their pregnancy just days after you find out your miscarrying?

Friday, May 31, 2013

Say What??

It has been a really long time since I have posted in here. A lot of you probably have forgotten my existence. I have been very busy with work and life in general. Let's see.....

I had an HSG done a few months ago. I was expecting it to be painful, as I googled and youtubed about the procedure, but I wasn't expecting it to feel like that. First off, the clamps he put in were too short, so he tried to shove them inside me. OWIE!!! I've never felt pain like that in my life. Not sure if it was really pain, or just plain uncomfortable. During the "wonderful" procedure we found that my tubes are clear (YAY), but my uterus is small and oddly shaped.

So I have a small uterus...........

Dr. G then wanted me to have an laparoscopy completed. I had my round of labs for that the last week of March. I am at school with my kids on our last day before spring break when I get a call that would change my life. "I have great news! You're pregnant!!!" My hcg level was low, but they figured it was just really early.

Being high risk, I get the pleasure of having several labs drawn and many prenatal appointments. With each set of labs, my hcg went up, but not by much. It doubled once....then went up a few points for the rest, where it eventually came to a stop and drop around 10 wks gestation. I was yet again having a miscarriage of my 5th, yes 5th pregnancy. The heparin and prometrium were not able to save this one.

I went through the miscarriage naturally and survived. Again. It is unfortunate that I know how to handle my grief through loss, because I have experienced so many.

This week, I called my RE and scheduled my HSG. I will have this procedure done on the 18th of June. He thinks that I could have endo (but I don't think I do) and he also wants to go check things out to get a better picture of my reproductive system.

After the HSG I am not sure what direction we will head. Will we go the natural route? Will we take all that medication? I guess it depends on the results.