Tuesday, June 29, 2010


I just wanna punch you in the face!! How dare you go around and tell people that you are so much better than me. That you are going to be more successful than I will ever be. First off, you don't know me. Don't know what I am capable of, don't know where I'm going in my life, or where I've come. I know why. You feel threatened by me. All of the triumphs that I have made, you are envious at how strong of a person I have become. Before you open your mouth again, please remember that you do it because you love me.

Today is the day

Since graduating college in December 2008, I have been looking for a full-time, contracted teaching position. However, the job market in the field of education is not doing so well due to the economic struggle we are all feeling. Since I was a young girl I have always dreamed of becoming a teacher and a mommy. Well, I have my teaching license, I'm just waiting for the teaching and mommy part.

Today I have an interview for a 4th grade teaching position!! WOOT WOOT! Yes, it is full-time and contracted! I am so very thankful for this opportunity to interview for this position! You have no idea how hard it is to even get an interview with over 300 applicants for one position. This job market is tough. It's like a fight scene from the movie Fight Club. Imagine teacher applicants in the waiting room, dressed in their best beating the crap out of each other to get the job. Now, that's not really what happens. We fight with words. Fight with our portfolios, lesson plans, and great smile! We know how to work it!

Today I am going to work it! I am going to show my mad interview skills so he will have no choice but to hire me! lol After my interview i will be waiting for a phone call to see if I got the job. Why does it seem like we are always waiting for the greatest things in our lives?

Sunday, June 27, 2010

Making a splash

As part of my high protein, low carb diet for my ovarian dysfunction I have been having to workout like a crazy person. when I first started this plan I lost about 25 pounds in a three month time frame. Since I started last week I've already lost 3 pounds. I think that it being summer is really helping me stay motivated. I've been in the pool everyday walking and swimming laps. I also do some yoga and aerobics at home. I'm just trying to push myself harder each day so that the outcome that I want will be achieved.

Saturday, June 26, 2010

33 days

Today has been 33 days since my D&C. To my suprise, and eariler than I expcted, AF arrived!!! We are closer to being able to start TTC a healthy sticky baby! WOOT WOOT!!!

Thursday, June 24, 2010

I have......

a job interview on Tuesday!!! WOOT WOOT!


Monday was our post D&C check-up. Josha nd I were both super nervous and didn't get much sleep. We went into town about an hour prior to the appoitment time. We had to get a few things that we needed for our house. So we had the appoitment (details will come in a bit) and then we went to lunch.

Well, after we ate lunch his dad calls us in a panic. He said he was having loads of paoin on his right side. He said he wasn't able to drive and could barely talk. So here we are between our hous and his dad's. We flew to Indy from my OB ton. It took us about 45 minutes to get to his house. We get there and is truck is no in the parking lot. Josh was in a panic, s he was the entire drive to his dad's. We tried calling his dad, but he was soo incoherent we were starting to get really worried. Thinking that maybe he is out driving somewhere and getting worse. Then we couldn't find the hospital, stinkin VZ Navigator led us the wrong way!!! Finally, his dad called us and was speaking normally. He gave us the right directions to the hospital, no thanks to verizon wireless. We get there and he seems to be doing fine. He didnt have a heart attack, thank goodness, but really bad kidney stones. Our day started at 7am and we didn't get home until almost 10pm. I am just thankful that it was nothing major with my FIL.

Ok, now to my OB appoitment. My BP was up, but I was just feaking out a little when they took me into the exam room. He goes through asking how I'm doing and such. Dr. C then tells me that the reason I bleed for so long after the procedure was because the placent was so embedded in my uterus. He had to practically dig it out! Then he states that he doesn't have all of the chromosomal testing results from Baby J. The part that he does have is all, get this, normal!! WTH!?! He said that they are looking over some of the chromosomes again b/c they seemed to be missing something. I should get the final results from this in about 3 more weeks. I'm not liking this waiting game, but it's what I gatta do.

I asked Dr. C about a vitamin deficiency. He said that my blood work was too good for me to have something like that. Then we start talking abotu my ovulation. He said that my counts when I was preggers just didn't make any sense. They were too high for how far along I was. He said it pretty much stated that I would have O'ed on CD9-11. Then I dropped the bomb on him that I did O on CD 11. I always do, with the 25 day cycle length. I never really knew this info about my body until I started temping. (*Tip* If you are TTC I would advise temping so you know more things about your body going into OB appoitments.) I guess I should have mentioned this summer, but I never thought that when I O'ed would really matter. I also told him about how my OPK's were always light, but my temps went up. Apparently I have early ovulation, duah! This causes my body to not prepare itself to keep a pregnancy. It doesn't allow the lining of my uterus to be strong enough to hold a pregnancy, thush my hormone issue.

Dr. C wants me to call him on the first day of my first cycle after mc. Then he is going to get me set up with more labs to see my progestrone levels, again. Then when we start TTC again, I have to take Prometrium, my $400/month progestrone medication, EVERYDAY to help build up the lining in my uterus to help prepare it for pregnancy. So I am taking it before and during pregnancy. He really doesn't want to give me clomid since I get pregnant so easily. The progestrone supplement is the best soultion. Eventually, he wants to do an SA on Josh.

I have to make a huge dent and effort in this diet. I have to do better than what I did the past time. Although, I am really starting to lack motivation. I want to help my body as best I can so I can sustain a pregnancy. Right now, I'm just in the waiting game...

Tuesday, June 15, 2010

It's been a while

WOW! I cannot believe that I haven't posted in such a long time! Sorry my dear followers. You may be wondering where I've been.

Well.... We did in fact end up pregnant for the third time. We found out in the end of April. However, at the end of May the baby had stopped growing. I had yet another D&C. This time Dr. C sent Baby J off to get some chromosomal testing. I had the first round of blood work. My blood work came back normal. Now I am just waiting to hear about the test from Baby J. My next appointment is on the 21st. I hope to hear something then. The hubs and I will go through more tests to see why we keep having miscarriages. I hope they find some answers. I want to get to the bottom of this situation.

Meanwhile, I've been really trying to focus my energy on being positive and productive. I've been working out on a daily basis trying to get my body back into shape. I've been creating a heart wall that holds my positive affirmations. I'm hopeful that all of my dreams will come true. I'm just going to have to work hard and stay strong.