Yes, well, maybe.... I really don't know

A few days ago I got a call from the OB's office. Dr C wants me to start taking my prometrium on CD 24 which will be on the 17th. He then said that we need to discuss going on clomid at my next appt which is on the 23rd.

No clomid......First he states that he doesn't want to put me on this because I get pregnant so easily. But since he found out my progesterone levels are so low he wants to put me on this med. This just really cornfuses me! I thought he didn't want to mess up my ovulation. I really have no idea. I guess that I am just going to have to voice my concerns and questions when I go in. HOWEVER, I'm really hoping that I get pregnant before then, especially since we are actively trying right now.

So prometrium and maybe clomid. Man who knew that my body would cause so many issues in trying to have a successful pregnancy.

She's here!!

Aunt Flo is finally in the building!! FINALLY!!! YAY!! This is the month we can start TTC again! Now all I have to do is wait for her beautiful face to leave! WOOT WOOT!

The results are in......

Progesterone level: 6.7



Needs to be 20!!!

humbug

I just feel like I am stuck in a rut with this whole TTC process and job hunt. Ugh... Will it ever be my turn to birth a baby, to house a baby in my uterus for 9 glorious months, to get an actual teaching job and not be sitting around as an aide for the rest of my life?!?

Hello Friends!

It's me Stacy. Just wanted to let you know that I am back on board of this TTC Train "chugga-chugga-chugga-chugga-choo-choo"

A light at the end of the.......rainbow?

Today is THE day! I am going to go and get my progesterone levels tested! WAHOO!!! I am soo excited for them to have to take my blood! Honestly, I never thought I would say that, but I am! Guess what else this means!?! We get to start trying for a baby again! Yes, I already know that I am at the end of this cycle, but really I'm so excited! Using rubbers, well that blew. Oh, and I start taking my Prometrium tonight! How amazing is that!!?!! We are this much closer to having a pregnancy again! I cannot wait!! I honestly feel that I am supposed to have a baby before I get a job. Things seem to be pointing in the direction of having children. I sure hope I'm right about this one!

In other exciting news, Josh's car FINALLY kicked the bucket! It was the car I owned since I was 16. You may be thinkin, "man this girl is crazy for being excited about a broken car!" It was honestly a rolling death sentence. This was the third time that the transmission blew and we were not going to fix it again! The car is only worth $200!! I'm tired of spending money on that darn thing! So I decided to call the bank. I got my new Envoy in May. They told us that we needed to wait 6months before trying for another loan. I was a little worried that we would be a one car family for another 3 months! We work in opposite directions at weird times, so being a one car family is not an option. So I explained all of this to them. She put me on hold for a few minutes. Then she gets back on and tells us to go find a car!

JACKPOT!!

After hearing those few words the search was on! So we live in the middle of Indiana, about 30 minutes from Greenville, Ohio. We ended up 10 miles from the Indiana-Michigan border. Yet, we still didn't find a truck. "It has to be perfect!!" So here we are looking for this perfect truck, in my perfect Envoy. And nothing.....No glimmer of hope.....It seems like all the trucks that Josh wants mysteriously were sold off the market once we got the go ahead to get a new one. WTH!?! This is his long weekend to work. We are going to resume the truck hunt on Monday. He may even do some Internet shopping. I'm just so excited that we are getting somewhere in life!!

Utah..

They hired someone from freakin' Utah for the 5th grade teaching position, even though it was an internal posting! Makes no sense to me! Gosh, will I ever get a teaching job................

I'm soooo excited!

And I just can't hide it!!

Friday, I go in for my progesterone testing. KMFC that the levels are not normal, which I don't think they will be with all of the research I've done. Which will be great if they are not normal, that would explain why we have had recurrent miscarriages. Anyways, after I get my progesterone tested I have to start taking Prometrium to help build up my lining. We can also start trying for a baby again. Which is wonderful btw!

Today I went to get my prometrium refilled so I have plenty when comes Friday. Now normally this RX costs me $400/month, so I've been getting it in two week spurts, because $400 was a bit much at the time. When I went today I asked to see how much it was. HOLY COW! She told me $50!! I was in shock! No joke I started dancing right there in Wal-Mart at the pharmacy!

You have no idea how excited I am about this decrease in cost! First off we met our $5000 deductible. So the insurance company is paying 80% of everything, normally we had to pay 80%. Our next deductible of $8000 will be the insurance pay it all. I think we will have that met by the end of this year, or at least I am hoping.

I'm soo excited to be just a pinch closer to TTC again. I'm ready!

Mellow Yellow

The past few days of my life, well, have been pretty uneventful. Nothing to exciting going on. Just thought I would let you know that I am still alive! YAY!

Who-da-what

Whelp, I FINALLY got the call. I didn't get the 4th grade job. They gave it to someone with 20yrs of experience. So the girl and I that work at the school are out, and back to aides. Puke! How the hector are we supposed to get experience when people won't hire us!?! It's beyond me!! I've decided that I am not going to let this bring me down. I am thankful that I have A job, it may not be THE job, but at least it is A job. So after I got off the phone with Mr B the phone rang again. It was the supers office. You know, one of those mass recordings sent to all school employees. Well, a 5th grade teacher resigned, which I knew she was going to I have sources, but it said to call Mr B to let him know if we are interested. I hung up the phone and called him right back. I was like I know I just got off the phone with you, but it said to call if we were interested in the 5th grade position, and I am soooo interested. He thought it was weird because the super said that he wasn't going to post the job until late July. Then he tells me that he would let me know when he does interviews. So apparently the first job wasn't for me. It wasn't one that I was supposed to have, but this one... Eek!! I am just going to have to bring more game to the next interview. I'm really going to have to rock the socks off of Mr B. Job hunting is soo stressful!! My positive is that I still have a chance to get a teaching position.

Hey MOM!

Rosco was super tired after our walk. He had no energy to stand and drink. Poor guy. :(

We know you just cleaned the couch, but we couldn't help ourselves. It smells WONDERFUL!!

Love you,

Rosco and Daisy

Thanks.

Thanks for telling me that I "don't know what it's like, because I don't have children!" Honestly, I almost forgot that all four of my babies are dead. Thanks for clearing this up for me.

Sales

Yesterday I was out shopping with my momma. I really didn't have the intentions to go buy things, just to look around and socialize. As soon as I walked into the mall, it was over. $100 poorer, but I got some really great things!!

I just love how when our America has holidays, we the people have sales. BIG HUGEMONGUS SALES! 70% off then take 60 % off!! WHAT!! These people are practically asking me to take the items off of there hands.

First stop: Elder Beerman side walk sale. (yeah side walk sale inside a mall, whoonu!) Well, this side walk sale really really made me want to have a child more. It made me wish that Baby J was still growing inside me. It made me wish that My 3 other sweet angels were sitting in a stroller while mommy went shopping. This sale, full of baby clothes! Baby clothes by the dump truck load!! $20 outfits for $3!! Now who could pass that up!! Yes, it made my heart a little sad, but it also filled me with hope. Hope that one day I will be able to attend these sales with a sweet child. And get this, actually buy something for my living, breathing, crying child. What did I do? Well I picked out the most gender neutral outfit I saw for a 6 mo baby. Yes, I did! I put it in my baby box. (A box of baby things that I started when I was preggers the first time. It's kinda like a baby hope chest.) It is just the cutest thing! There are two onsies, one long and one short sleeve, a pair of green pants with a duck head on the butt. One of the onsies says "look I made you smile!" The other onsie has a picture of a duck. So into my baby box it goes. Along with all of the other things. Hoping and waiting for the day that I actually will have a baby to dress in these clothes.

Ohh, I also got some great shorts, $50 shorts I might add, for ONLY $19!! What! Nope, I'm not fibbing to you. That's the truth. So I bought three pair! Adorable, I might add! I also got a table cloth and a shirt for the hubcap.

At Kohl's I bought a beautiful $30 necklace for $9. I'm really starting to see that I'm a bargain hunter. Either that or America has opened up the gates of savings to me. She is like here Stacy, go out and shop for really cheap!

Then I went to Target. Oh target. The store I totally <3 with all my heart. It is a teachers dream! Especially that dollar section right by the entrance. OMG! So I totally spent $14 on dollar items. Items for my future classroom. Now, if only I would get the call saying that I got the job.......

Heart

Exercise has to follow motivation for me. Motivation has to be something real. My motivation is my four angel babies. Out of all four of them, only one was able to have his/her picture taken. There, above my TV in a beautiful frame, is an ultrasound picture of our beautiful sweet precious Baby J. How much more motivation do I need, than that? Looking at my precious sweet baby while working out keeps me going.

Yesterday, while getting my workout on, I just started at that picture amazed at the creation that my husband and I made. Thinking about where I would be at this point in my pregnancy. Would this baby be a boy or a girl? What would he/she look like? A million questions entered into my mind.

The longer I look at my baby, the more and more I begin to notice something. Right under the sac holding my sweet child, is the shape of a heart and the figure of arms out stretched. Right there in my uterus was someone loving and holding my Baby J up. Protecting him/her from harm. It was my other 3 angels. Tears started to stream down my face. I screamed for my husband to come and have a look. He just held me tight.

I find comfort in knowing that my sweet children, my husband, and myself all have guardian angels.

1 hour 200 reps

Since January I have really been trying to focus on getting my health in order to better help with conception and the keeping of a pregnancy. I've been focusing on my diet and exercise routine that was set by my OB. For the first 3 months of this plan I lost 25 pounds! I went down 2 (yes 2) pant sizes and one shirt size!! When I became preggers with Baby J, I gained 10 pounds immediately. I've heard that you gain more and more weight with each pregnancy, and at a faster rate too. I was pretty shocked.

Well, here I am trying to lose that 10 pounds from Baby J and the 20 extra that I want to lose. so far I've lost about well, 8. I've really been trying my hardest at the exercise. Each day I spend an hour on my Wii Fit doing various activities. Love the Super Hula Hoop, by the way. Then I finish up by doing 200 reps of ab work. I can really see my abs starting to form muscles, and feel it too. I try to either go for a walk or swim on top of what I am doing.

Now the diet.....It has been harder this time to really focus on the diet. It's summer and I just love all the summer foods! Ice cream, strawberries, peaches, hot dogs.....I just have to keep reminding myself that I need to stay focused towards my babies. I'm doing this for them. I'm doing this for myself. I'm doing this for my husband. I know that this is going to pay off in the end. It just has to.