Bits and pieces of becoming a mom: August 2010

Saturday, August 21, 2010

DAY 13 ~ A fictional book

This is really hard for me. I am such a book lover. Ok, so my favorite fictional is: My Sisters Keeper.

Thursday, August 19, 2010

The way the dishes are washed!! Here's the line up:
1. plastic cups
2. glass cups
3. silverware and cooking utensils
4. plates
5. containers
6. Things with ooey gooey's on them like pots and pans

I just hate thinking that people was them in another order than this! The things that touch my mouth first will be washed first!! I dont want my forks sitting in a sink of ooey gooey things only then to be placed in my mouth!!!

You know husband, if we just had a dishwasher life would be soo much better!!

DAY 11 ~ A recent photo

This photo is of my husband and I. I think it was taken about two weeks ago. We were actually sitting at the computer researching my hormone disorder. Ironic.

Running through my blood

Yesterday I started my first round of Clomid (50mg). This plus the current diet and progesterone supplement that I am devouring should help us stay pregnant. Or at least i hope and pray it does.

So far the only side effect is that I am extremely tired.

I go in on the 23rd to my OB for my annual check up. He wants to discuss what I need to do on what days during my cycle. I have a sono on the 30th to check if the clomid is working. Then on CD 21 more progesterone testing!!

2yrs and still going.

Monday, August 16, 2010

I will....

start taking clomid on Wednesday. That plus prometrium at the end of the cycle really should help.

I hope.

DAY 10 ~ A picture of me 10 years ago

This was in 2001. I was on my senior trip in Florida. I'm the one in the blue stripped tank. I think we were at Hard Rock Cafe. It was such a great time.

Sunday, August 15, 2010

DAY 9 ~ I took this picture

Ok So I need to keep going with this to keep my mind off of the TTC mess that currently houses my brain.

I know the picture is side ways, I really couldnt get it to flip. This is a picture of my SIL, her boy friend, my hubs and me at the 2010 March of Dimes event. This was such an amazing day.

Saturday, August 14, 2010

I'm so tired....

of trying.

I just wish there was a magic button that i could push and make everything better. Allow me to hold my three precious angel babies in my arms. Allow my uterus to decide to house a baby.

I'm just so tired of failure. I feel like I've failed my motherly duties. I've failed my husband to bring him a child. I failed to make us a family....

TTC sucks when all we have had is negative. Just for once, just once, I would love something positive to come out of this. But, will it ever......

DAY 7 & 8 ~ A happy and sad photo

This picture.....Well, it really is the best of both worlds. At first I was extremely happy when this was taken. Now it makes me yearn for this baby.

The day mommy and daddy got to see you for the first time Baby J was just so amazing. We heard your beautiful heartbeat and saw you moving around. I decided to make copies of this photo and put it in frames. One for me and daddy and one for each of your grandmothers. That was the best day of my life.

Then when we had that appt where we found out you stopped growing. I came home, saw your picture in the frame. I don't think I've ever cried soo much.

To this day whenever I look at that picture my soul becomes flooded with joy and sorrow. I know eventually I will have a child growing and staying with me.

Wednesday, August 11, 2010

To my dearest Daisy,

Your tail is attached.....

Tuesday, August 10, 2010

DAY 6 ~ 20 favorite things

"These are a few of my favorite things......."

My husband

My sweet doggies, Rosco and Daisy

My angel babies

My family

My dearest friends

My job as a teacher

The smell of playdough

Chicken (I could live off of this food)

Butterflies

Ice cream

Books, books, books!!

Music

Swimming my day away

The feel of the sun against my skin

Snuggeling with my husband and my doggies

Purple

The smell of bleach

Clean clothes and sheets

My home

My car

DAY 5 ~ My favorite quote

This quote ties into my favorite movie, Meet the Robinsons. This quote was the reoccuring theme throughout the duration of the movie. I guess it really helps me through my life. It really pushes me.

"We keep moving forward, opening new doors, and doing new things,

because we are curious, and curiosity keeps leading us down new paths"

~Walt Disney

8DPO

Yes, I am 8 days past ovulation. How am I feeling???
Sleepy...
Side pain...
hungry...
not hungry....
Did I mention sleepy??

Last night I went to bed at like 8:00 I woke up this morning at 9!! Yes I got 13 hours of sleep! Hopefully I can stay awake today.

DAY 4 ~ My favorite book

This is a hard one for me. I'm a teacher, avid reader, and book nut....It's going to be hard to choose. There was a time when one book slips out of my favorites only to return a month later. Okay I think it's time to go look in my book shelf........................How can I possibly choose one book out of my zillion books!!! AHH!!!!!

Okay deep breaths....

In....

Out....

My all time favorite book is.......The Wizard of Oz! There is just something about that book that captures all of my mind, all of my attention, all of my love.

Monday, August 9, 2010

DAY 3 ~ My favorite TV show

When I read the title of today's favorite I already knew in my mind my favorite TV show. Hands down, my favorite TV show is House. I really don't think I need to explain anything farther than that. It's just an amazing show! And the boss is kinda cute!

Thursday, August 5, 2010

DAY 2 ~ My favorite movie

Comedy, horror, romantic, romantic-comedy, Disney....WOW! It's too hard to choose! My husband and I just love to watch movies. I think my favorite genre is comedy of any sort. But I still do love me some Disney. My pick for favorite movie is....Drum roll please........Meet the Robinsons! There is just something about this movie that captures my heart, makes me want to reach and achieve all of my dreams. This moving is very inspiring. Honestly I could watch this movie each and every day.

Wednesday, August 4, 2010

DAY 1 ~ My favorite song

So without further adieu : DAY 1 ~ My favorite song

WOW! This is going to be much harder than I thought. I have so many great songs in my life. I am a very musically inclined person. Playing a musical instrument for over 8 years will do that to a person. Let's see.... My facorite song has to be "Just a Girl" by No Doubt. I have always been a HUGE GYNORMOUS No Doubt fan. I remember beign a little girl at my grandmothers house rockin' it out on her porch to this group. I totally think I rocked the air gutiar! Oh and her outfits! Gwen, you are just amazing!! Lo and behold my first ever concert :2009 No Doubt at the Verizon Wireless Music Center in Indy. Yep, I'm a No Doubt junkie!