Bruised

Today I took my 6th injection of heparin, 6th dose of aspirin. I'm starting to have some bruising from the injections, but am soo thankful for them. I call those bruises "bruises of love." I love having them because I KNOW that we finally have an answer to our reoccurring miscarriages. I'm thankful for the possibility to be having a child soon. Test day is Tuesday. I'm anxious to see what that day brings!

Versatile Blogger Award

A HUGE thank you goes to http://myinfertilityhurts.blogspot.com/ I

was not expecting to get an award. To be truthful I haven't

been great at writing on here lately....

The Rules:

1. Winners ~ Put the above image in your blog

2. Include a link back to the person who gave it to you

3. Tell 10 things about yourself

4. Award 15 other bloggers

5. Contact the bloggers you awarded and let them know they won

10 things about me:

1. My husband and i have been trying to have children since Aug 2008. We found out that my body is killing our children by cutting out their nutritional supply by using blood clots (brutal I know).

2. I have my teaching license, just cannot find a job thanks to this economy.

3. I lived in Germany for 4yrs, while the Berlin Wall came down. My dad was in the military.

4. I have two black labs, Rosco and Daisy, who I love to pieces.

5. I enjoy reading, I just don't have the time.

6. I love to go walking, yet I have no one to walk with, so I either go alone or don't go at all...

7. I play the Sims and build the dream version of myself.

8. I love to paint my toe nails.

9. No Doubt is the best music group!!!

10. I'm terrified of needles, yet my husband has to give me injections for APAS..

My 15 awards go to.........

1. http://www.stoneyville.net/

2. http://angelbabyalexandra.blogspot.com/

3.http://dreamingnorth.blogspot.com/

4. http://rogandjessica.blogspot.com/

5. http://mylifeafterloss.blogspot.com/

Butts

I dont think that my husband has looked at my naked rear as much as he has in the last couple of months for all this ttc necessities. Today I had my cd13 ultrasound with the RE. I had two large follies on the right, zero on the left. Which i'm okay with. I trucked my self over to the pharmacy and picked up my trigger. The husband gave me the shot when we got home. Yep this shot was in my butt. No I know he has seen it many many many times before, but its just different when he's going at it with a needle full of meds to help with this whole baby making process. I'm thankful that I have someone like him to do this for me. He's just one heck of an amazing guy. Why else would I be with him!! :) Anyways, Saturday I start heparin and baby aspirin. Wish us luck! I sure hope this is the time for us!!

Money

Dealing with infertility and miscarriage is bad enough, but having to deal with that plus the money factor is a HUGE slap in the face. I cannot believe how expensive the meds are! And the thing is insurance does not cover them! Why? Because its not a life threatening condition.

What I dont understand is how people that cause themselves harm through some sort of dangerous activity (ie, drinking, smoking and drugs) get the coverage they need for issues that happen due to their risky behavior. Yet here I am who has not caused this condition and I'm the one to get punished financially! Makes no sense. I wish these insurance companies knew how it felt to walk in my shoes. Just to see if it would make a difference.

Yes, this is expensive, but it's more than worth it to be able to hold my living child in my arms.

My life has been...

CRAZY!!!!! i've been beyond busy lately. So much so that I havent been able to get on here and tell you whats been going on. The most important thing. I got the call back from the RE. Found out that my body is killing my husbands DNA. How great is that!! I know you may think wth?!? Why is this lady glad that she is killing her husbands dna! well this my friends means that I have answers. Answers as to why I keep having miscarriages. Answers that will help me achieve my dream of becoming a mother. So basically my body is building clots to kill off the hubsters dna of our child. My body is just super strong and only wants me to be in there. Its kinda like a souped up immune system. Found out that I am going to have children! i just have to take (and here is the HUGEMUNGOUS list) Femara, baby aspirin, heparin, hcg trigger, and prometrium. Shoo what a least. But, I'm finally starting to see a light at the end of this infertility tunnel!