You're Killing Me

Today I had a doctors appointment to prep me for my D&C tomorrow. I thought I was strong going into the office. Not going to cry, because I've done that already. I thought I had shed tears for my lost twins. As soon as I walked in the door my eyes started to water. This is the end of it. The end of holding my twins. The end of this pregnancy. There were several expectant mothers and fathers in the waiting room. Why can't we be those parents? Why do we have to suffer time and time again with the loss of our unborn children?! I just wish it was our time. Our time to have a family. I guess it will come eventually.