In Rememberance

Since the loss of Baby H in April 2009 I was on a mission to find something to remember our lost child. Today, while shopping with my mom at Kohl's, I found the perfect way to remember Baby H. A bracelet. As soon as I saw this bracelet I knew in my heart that this is what I had been looking for. I will always remember our lost child each and every time I wear this bracelet. Baby H will forever be in my heart.

Living with an ADD spouse

I'm beginning to think that my husband needs some medical attention.

While we were dating his younger brother was on medication for ADHD. His younger sister she was hyper, but didn't have any other symptoms. During school Josh never did homework, but got great grades on tests. He lacks motivation and loses track of many things.

As time went on, the symptoms worsened. He has trouble finding his way to our normal grocery store. The house is in jumble. When he is at work the house is spotless, but as soon as he enters the door a tornado wipes through. He doesn't like to get rid of anything, and loves stacking. Josh loses track of time, cannot manage money, loses interest in projects he starts, forgets things that he needs to do, and has started to lose his sex drive (its hard to make babies when he doesn't want to have sex or gets distracted while we are in the process).

Suddenly things started to make sense. Big DUH moment!! He has ADD. All of the symptoms are there as clear as day. I really didn't realize this until I discovered that leaving notes or checklists for him on the bathroom mirror started to help. We have yet to discuss this with our family doctor, but are starting to make changes in our life.One thing that I have been working on is decluttering and organizing the house. I worked in special education for 6 years and am pulling resources from that time in my life.I would like to find some great information on helping my husband cope with life. Help him get his sex drive back. I would also like to chat with people that are going through the same situation. I believe it is of great importance to connect and support others going through the same situation.

What a day

I had my interview this morning. It went really well. He told me that he will call me tomorrow and let me know about the job. It sounds like a great experience. I will keep you posted.

I have not been feeling well today. I feel like I need to throw-up. And I'm a little tired. I've been this way for a few days. Strange af, then this. I hope I am not getting the thing that I had back in December. Dec 08-Jan 09 I had the strangest sickness. My vit D was extremely low and and I high levels of inflammation along with sever joint pain. The doctors could not explain why I was feeling that way. I took 8 Advil's a day along with vit d and eventually felt better. There was a point where I was unable to get out of bed. I just hope and pray that this tiredness has nothing to do with that. Now what explains the strange af and the pukey feeling?

Hoping for something great!

Today I received a phone call about a teaching assistant job. I have an interview tomorrow morning. I hope something good comes from this. Maybe this is what I've been waiting for? Maybe this job is the "one" that I need to get more experience (as I've been told I need)? Please remember me tomorrow as I walk down the hall, sit in the chair, and answer endless questions about why I would be the best candidate. Hopefully good news will follow!!

Say What?!?

Well my last af was really strange. She actually just lasted three days instead of her normal five. Aunt Flo was also pretty light. Lighter than she has been since having the miscarriage. I'm not to sure whats going on with my body. What is she trying to tell me?! I wish she would just get it out there so I can be in the know.

I've not been feeling very well these past few days and have not been sleeping for weeks. I am so tired during the day, but as soon as I lay down I'm wide awake. I have maybe been getting 3/4 hrs of sleep a night. Sunday and Monday I felt like throwing up. I also had some stomach cramps. So here I am with the strange af behind me, not sleeping, and feeling ill. What the crap!

You have me thinking

I am starting to regain my life. I've been feeling great! No lows, no anger, just me. THANKFULLY!! My husband and I decided to really start ttc again. Today I've been looking at my calendar, the one I keep with all of the bodily info on it. I started it in August 08 when we start ttc to keep track of my cycles. I noticied some interestint things. But first I will tell you about this cycle.

The cycle that is currently visiting me started 3 days early. AF has been very very light, with yesterday being the heaviest. AF should depart tomorrow, but I think she is pretty much gone. Yesterday I felt sick all morning. It wasnt until I had lunch that I started to feel better. I noticed that af visited me two weeks before. Strange.

I looked back to March at my last "cycle" before getting our bfp in April. that cycle was similar to this one and it was two and a half weeks after the start of the previous cycle. I dont know if I am making any sense. I'm just a little curious. I wish I could post the two monts on here to see what the readers think. Maybe I am wishful thinking and just dreaming it all up, I dont know. I might go buy a test tomorrow just to see what comes of it.

Here are the two months: March and Aug. August does not have as much information due to having computer issues and not able to chart as much. Whats going on?

Shortening Cycles?

Today Aunt Flo arrived, one day early of her scheduled date. My cycles seem to be shortening. Before my miscarriage my cycles were 24-25 days, after they dropped to 23 days. My last cycle was a short 22 days. What is going on with my body? Why are my cycles shortening? It has me really confused.

My husband and I have decided to really start trying again. My hopes have come up and I am starting to be more positive. I think that I am going to purchase some opk's, just not sure what brand. Anyone have any suggestions of good brands?